Friday, July 21, 2017

Be a Rose

Be a Rose
By Diana Jillian

To break out of your shell
You must face whatever hell
For addiction is a security blanket

Get the mind to unwind
Set it back on rewind
But don’t go too far back

To figure what went wrong
Or to place it into a song
Don’t let yourself get trampled on

Focus a face in the crowd
When things get too loud
To help keep you in the light

You can be both: soft as a petal
And as hard and sharp as a metal
Remain the thorny, sweet Rose

When life gets too loud
Remember to face the crowd
Find that familiar face

7/21/17 ©Diana Jillian

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Day 364


Day 364 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, July 2nd, 2017.

One day left! I can't believe I made it this far!

I'm grateful I had three days off. I look forward to taking a vacation. I have enough PTO to take two weeks off, but one week will suffice!

I'm grateful for my friend that stuck with me on this project. To tell the truth, because of social media and how it makes my brain feel, I was half tempted to quit before it even started. Thank you for sticking around!


That's The Way It Goes

Discovering soul
Finding the hole
That’s inside me

Gathering the rope
When I’m all out of hope
The tears I’ve left behind

I’m waiting to bloom
Like the hibiscus in June
Waiting is time lost

One day I won’t have to hide
When I see you on the other side
I have a path of life to cross first

Color leads the way
To brighten my day
Darkness still follows

And so
That’s the way it goes!

©Diana Jillian 7/2/17

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Day 363


Day 363 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, July 1st, 2017.

First, can I just say....what in the world just happened on DW! The ending was wicked awesome. Only now I'm on a new countdown. 5 months and 24 days until the next show!

OK, now that I've got that -- sort of -- out of my system, onto the gratuity challenge.

Today I am grateful for my grandma! She is always there to listen! I am grateful for that!

I got some more laundry done, but sadly not the skirt just yet. I'm hoping tomorrow will be different. I just think of the time consumption, and then I get a little discouraged. I am trying my best to work past that!


Day 362


Day 362 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, June 30th, 2017.

My first three day weekend off in a very long time. I'm grateful for that!

Having a puppy is very exhausting! Don't believe anyone who tells you differently. You have to keep them safe. You have to make sure they don't get hurt or -- God forbid -- something worse.

I got to do some cleaning, though it is hard when I don't want to always put Spock in the pen. He needs to roam around. So I did my shopping very early and let him have at it around the house. I think he had fun because now he's sleeping! I'll post a pic later.

I got to do some laundry, and partially fix my bed frame. The middle was caving in. I think it happened when I rearranged the bed. Moving it on the carpet -- even with carpet coasters -- proved to be a challenge. Reminder to self to take the bed off and just move the frame! LOL

I'm rambling.

Any who, I was thinking of picking this challenge back up in January, but change it up a bit. I tend to get ahead of myself a lot! LOL

Well, I guess I'll save the sewing for tomorrow. I'm going to turn a dress I bought into a skirt. And hopefully I can make a lovely shirt with the remaining material. I have a plan in mind. I should sketch, but I have a photographic memory.


Thursday, June 29, 2017

Day 361


Day 361 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, June 29th, 2017.

I'm grateful for a three day weekend!

I need sleep now because I over think too much! I wish I didn't have this problem.


Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Day 360


Day 360 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, June 28th, 2017.

I'm grateful I got this far om the challenge! There's only 5 days left.

There are times when I just want to leave fb. I stay because of the great friends I have. But I also don't like it when family finds me.

I just feel that if they can't make the time to talk to me, or text me, why should they have the privilege of knowing anything that's going on in my life, good or bad.

That to me sounds fake. We'll just be great buddies on social media, but we'll never chat in person. And when we do, I'll pretend to listen when really I'm not. I won't hang out with you in public either because you're an embarrassment. Well, that's the feeling I get.

So many friends and family have been around my neck of the woods, and never have they ever turned around to ask me if I want to meet up with them or hang out.

Well, maybe the Universe is doing me a favor. Maybe it's sparing me from heartache down the line. I guess I'll never know.

I am grateful for a higher power.

The poem below is something I had written a year ago. I think it was a Blogophilia piece.

I turned it into a picture.


Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Day 359


Day 359 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, June 27th, 2017.

I'm grateful I have the ability to not say anything when I'm upset, and will probably regret saying it later.

I'm grateful I can walk away from the drama, and learn how to wait it out before saying anything.

I'm also very tired right now, so this post may be convoluted. It's a good thing I don't have many friends! :)


Monday, June 26, 2017

Day 358


Day 358 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Monday, June 26th, 2017

I'm grateful I'm not mean and spiteful. I'm glad I don't try to hurt people with my words. I'm grateful I don't make people feel like crap for no reason. I'm grateful I'm discreet. I'm grateful I can rise above.

At least I can hope. Some like to test me to a point, and then when I do explode, they say to me, "God! What did I do to you?"

You know. Same ol, same ol.


Sunday, June 25, 2017

Day 357


Day 357 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, June 25th, 2017

I'm getting this done early just in case I decide to take another trip into Sleepytown after I get out of work.

I'm grateful for having some time to work out the kinks of this challenge. When posting a pic daily for 365 days, you can often get mixed up. Not to mention FB doesn't always put your pics in that particular album either.

Well in any case,  I'm grateful! :)


Day 356


Day 356 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, June 24th, 2017.

I think I may have miscalculated my 365 day journey!

I have "10" days left of this challenge. Well, 10 days from the 24th. That will put me at July 4th, which doesn't seem right.

Anyway, I'm grateful I went to bed early . I got 9 hours of sleep. That was why I didn't post a challenge last night.

I'm grateful for sleep! :)


Friday, June 23, 2017

Day 355


Day 355 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, June 23rd, 2017.

Some days it's so unclear to me what the Universe wants me to do!

I had plans today to go shopping and buy beads. Maybe go tp goodwill and find a dresser. Maybe stop by my rents, and give my dad a belated father's day present (because last Sunday was all out hectic and very dramatic and traumatic.)

I had all these plans on my only day off that will now have to wait until my next day off which will be Monday afternoon perhaps, and nothing again until the weekend where I probably won't have the money anymore to go shopping, resulting in additional charges on my credit card.

This, for some reason, is what the Universe wants for me. I don't know why.

But I will say this much. The Universe has always had a strange way of protecting me. Like I'll hear of an accident five minutes before reaching to a destination. Had I left sooner -- my normal standard time -- it probably would have been me involved in that accident.

I guess in a way, you can say I'm grateful for the Universe!


Day 354


Day 354 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, June 22nd, 2017.

I'm late running this in because sometime around 11pm, the cable and the internet decided to go out. I have unlimited data, but this area where I live is a complete dead zone when it comes to data or cell phone signal.

Anyway, I'm grateful! I got to take a nap. And I'm grateful I got some surprising news. I don't want to share just yet for fear of jinxing it, or for fear it might have just been me dreaming! LOL I'll keep you posted. Or not!

I just realized I only have 11 days left of this challenge! Most seem to like it better when I post memes or something difficult in my life. Never do they want to hear about something you're pretty much struggling to be grateful about.

It's assumed that because it's called a 365 Day Gratitude Challenge that it's supposed to be all sunshine! But it's not. It's me working out the kinks in order to find what it is I am grateful for.

To those who have stuck with me and my stories this year, you're awesome! Thank you for your constant support! I am truly grateful to have you in my life!

I have other projects I'd like to work on. That's including blog topics more suited for me. So each week, instead of working with blogophilia, I shall do what I was doing before. Just not videos. I really don't like how I look or sound. Eh, I'll keep you posted -- somehow.


Thursday, June 22, 2017

Day 353


Day 353 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, June 21st, 2017.

I'm guessing you're wondering what I'm doing up so late on a "school" night. Eh, you're probably not.

Any who. I'm grateful for naps!

I was so tired today. My karma was completely drained due to unnecessary drama going on at both home and work. It happens to us empathetic people.

So, I am grateful to have gotten sleep, and hopefully recharge my energetic batteries!

With any luck, I am praying I purged out the rest of this negative energy I inherited from others, and ready to start Thursday anew!


Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Day 352


Day 352 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, June 20th, 2017.

Just as I was heading off to bed, this quote popped up on my screen.

I'm tired of dealing with petty coworkers, I'm tired of dealing with petty family who will belittle and destroy me by trash talking about me. I'm just tired.

And then I see a quote like this, and it reminds me of what needs to be done.

The Universe sure is serendipitous sometimes! I'm grateful!


Monday, June 19, 2017

Day 351


Day 351 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Monday, June 19th, 2017

I'm grateful I got a day off. I shirked off some responsibilities for the day, but I got to watch some classic movies like family, comedy and noir films.

And the best part of my day, I got to spend it with my puppy! I would have taken pics, but I left my phone in the other room for the majority of the day!


Sunday, June 18, 2017

Day 350

Day 350


Day 350 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Only 15 days left, and I need to get the ball rolling on other projects. I need to make a list for myself and stick to it.

I'm grateful today is done and over with. Today's horoscope seemed to have been relevant to today.

I'm grateful to be home! :)


Saturday, June 17, 2017


16.10 Topic: It Was The Best Night Of My Life!
2pts: Use the word Zoroastrianism

1pt:   Incorporate a red shoe



Day 349 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, June 17th, 2017

OK! Here goes nothing!

I'm grateful for the blogging group, I really am! I just run out of time like today! Today was my son's 21st birthday, and I had to work my 10 hour shift. I work from 8 to 6:30 usually every other weekend!

Everything today was rush, rush, rush. While I wouldn't say *it was the best night of my life*, I wouldn't say I hated it either!

I don't believe in *Zoroastrianism*, but I don't believe in most religions due to them always breaking out in war.

I like peace, and quantum physics.

It's usually a good day for me when I wear my *red Converse shoes.*

I honestly got nothing for the giraffes that are peeking into the window. Perhaps it a Kindergarten class, and they're learning about jungles?

Yeah, my guesses are lame, and I apologize to Martien Ecrits in advance for being so lax. I'm trying my best to catch up!

I'm grateful for good friends and family! I'm grateful for my son!





Friday, June 16, 2017

Day 348


Day 348 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, June 16th, 2017.

I'm grateful I had a good day. I had a busy, but good day! After finishing up my errands this morning, I got in a nap! I was so tired! LOL

Tomorrow is my son's birthday! He will be the big 21! :)


Thursday, June 15, 2017

Day 347


Day 347 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, June 15th, 2017

I'm grateful for new adventures coming my way. *knocks on wood* hopefully. The less I say, the less likely I'll be jinxed. Yes I still believe in that.

It seems like when I'm excited or looking forward to something, I have a tendency to tell someone, who feels petty enough to wish the opposite for me.

I try my best to be as private as possible when it comes tp certain things I want or look forward to.

I also think I made a somewhat breakthrough today. It's a small victory, but I am grateful for it.

Don't get me wrong. I still have a long way to go on this very giant milestone!


Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Day 346


Day 346 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, June 14th, 2017

I'm grateful I'm starting to get used to getting to work earlier than usual. Since the new time change, I get there with a minute to spare. Other times, exactly on time. And then there are times where I was clocking in a minute or two late! I just had to change my ways, and so far *knocks on wood* It's been working. I feel better arriving early.

I haven't been late since I was a kid in my early 20's! I like what's become of older me. I am grateful.

I'm grateful for 19 days left. It's been quite the challenge to come up with something to be grateful for every day, but I am grateful for the challenge. Perhaps I'll pick it back up in January. I just need to see if I can go back to my old writing habits for the next six months. I guess only time will tell. Hopefully when I do go back, it will be a different kind of back. I hope it will be for the better.

Something Billy Joel had sung in a song, "Then the king and the queen went back to the green, but you can never go back there again."

Ah, time for bed! :)


Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Day 345


Day 345 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, June 13th, 2017.

I'm grateful I have 20 days left of this challenge! I'm getting there slowly but surely! :)

Today was a better day cold wise. It's not really a cold, but just really bad allergies!

Well, my battery is low, and I'm late for bed!



Monday, June 12, 2017

Day 344


Day 344 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Monday, June 12th, 2017.

I really wanted to post more pics, but I've got no more time. It's almost 11pm now.

So, I'm grateful I am home. I'm grateful for my pups. I'm grateful for my husband. I'm grateful for friends.


Sunday, June 11, 2017

Day 343


Day 343 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, June 11th, 2017.

You gotta have some laughable moments. I'm grateful for laughter.

I've been in the dark lately, but that doesn't mean I have to drag everyone else off into my darkness. I shall provide the light while I hide in the shadows.


Day 342


Day 342 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, June 10th, 2017.

I am so behind!

Last night I went to bed around 5pm, and woke up about 12 hours later.

I just needed the sleep!

I do feel much better since having to sleep my cold away. I've had this cold for over a week now.

I'm grateful for sleep. I'm grateful I'm getting better.

I'll be posting another challenge here shortly. I need to catch up.


Saturday, June 10, 2017

Day 341


Day 341 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, June 9th, 2017.

I lost track of time. One minute it was almost 10pm, and the next is now! Just after 1 in the AM.

I took my puppy to the vet today. He has a really bad cold, and the doctor said he needs to be on antibiotics.

I would do anything for all my babies. Skin and fur babies!

I am grateful I don't have to work tomorrow because that would suck with me being up this late! LOL

Everything is going well. I have faith. As long as that hamster keeps spinning that wheel inside my head, I should be OK! :)


Thursday, June 8, 2017

Day 340


Day 340 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, June 8th, 2017.

It's almost midnight and I'm still awake because there is no rest for the wicked.

The fluid in my lungs are still pretty bad. Nothing I can't handle. I'm used to living like this. You have to be.

I had to work 12-8 today. So I'm a bit wound up. Today is also Andy's birthday, and I bought a dozen donuts from DD for him.

IDK! I'm not really good at gifts. When I see something someone likes, I usually just get it for someone whether it's their b'day or not. It might not even be a holiday at all.

In any case, no one likes the gifts I buy. I put all my heart and soul into finding a perfect gift, but they never like it. Don't believe me? Just ask my family!

Oh right! Positive stuff.

Well why is it that when I post positive things, people want to tear me down? And when I'm down, they want to build me up? Why? I thought they wanted me down to begin with.

I really, really love my dogs! They bring me so much joy and laughter!

I wish I could go back to the days when I had such a wide eyed view on the world!

I'm grateful tomorrow is literally my Friday!


Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Day 339


Day 339 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, June 7th, 2017


Petty, jealous people
All live under the steeple

Listen upon dramatic whims
Picking me apart by the limbs

Like a heart attack
*There's no looking back

*Trying to find the serendipity
When all I see are faces of pity

*Country roads
Personality explodes

*Struggling to reach the house
Only to find the petty mouse

*There's no looking back, is a line from the song, "Happy Now?" By No Doubt

I thought I would get over to my computer to highlight, but I've been sick and lazy. The asterisks are my highlights. I have no guesses this week. Perhaps next week! *fingers crossed*

Written by Diana Jillian, 6/4/17, Sunday


Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Day 338


Day 338 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, June 6th, 2017.

I'm grateful for good people at work. That's what I need to focus on. My boss let me go home early to take care of my cold.

I am starting to feel better. I'd like to thank Mucinex for my speedy recovery! Also, I'd like to thank Tylenol, for helping me reduce my fevers (and they're not for cow bells!)

I think that's all I've got for now.

I'm grateful for my friends, little pups, son, and husband.

Monday, June 5, 2017

Day 337


Day 337 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Monday, June 5th, 2017.

I'm grateful I had the day off. Hopefully nursing my cold will be over with by the time I get into work tomorrow--I hope!

I had some time as well to think about my haters, and realized I didn't say anything about them. They assume because that's what haters do!

Either way, I'm younger than they are (isn't that sad?), and I know better than to assume.

I'm grateful for that!


Sunday, June 4, 2017

Day 336


Day 336 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, June 4th, 2017

With 29 days left of this challenge, I find myself challenged today.

My cold got worse. And I felt like no one was helping me. And then my day grew worse. After the changing of the guard, the trouble makers I work with, I learned--are trying to get me fired. Joke is on them if they think I plan on staying there much longer!

Had they listened to me before--which clearly they have not--they would know I'm working my way trying to find another job. I need something with more pay. It really is true the more you make, the more you spend!

Well, I will never allow myself in that predicament ever again. So here's what I'm grateful for:

I'm grateful I am able to stand up to bullies! And I'm grateful for karma as I have seen it work!


Saturday, June 3, 2017

Day 335


Day 335 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, June 3rd, 2017.

I'm grateful for sleep.

I am sad I didn't get to turn in yet another blog.

I like writing. I have time, and ideas...I am just having focus issues.


Friday, June 2, 2017

Day 334


Day 334 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, June 2nd, 2017.

Well, I'm grateful I had a day off! It was sloth day for me as I watched some iZombie, and then Riverdale--which is based off the Archie comics I used to read. Though these shows have a darker side. Now we wait to see when Sabrina might make an appearance--if possible! Oh well! I'm more towards the supernatural side when it comes to watching shows.

Now, back to work tomorrow, and Sunday! :)


Thursday, June 1, 2017

Day 333


Day 333 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, June 1st, 2017.

I had an idea in my head on what to be grateful for. I forgot what that was! LOL

I'm grateful I'm off tomorrow.

I'm grateful for lots more. I just need to quit being lazy about it!


Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Day 332


Day 332 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, May 31st, 2017.

I'm grateful I have the means to be nice. If I don't like something someone posts, I just move on. If I don't agree, I just keep going. I decide not to piss people off.

It doesn't mean I get the same respect, but I like to think eventually they will take a hint.

I don't know what kind of a day someone is having when they decide to make snide comments to me in person or on my posts. We all have bad days. It's really none of my business how you feel. I just feel empathic either way.

Well, I guess it's just a post I'm not meant to keep for my own self. It's meant to be deleted for good. And the people in person only make me realize now to wait for that other shoe to drop!

I'll know better next time, and for that, I am grateful!


Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Day 331


Day 331 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, May 29th, 2017

I'm grateful my DVR is lowering. I think I may cancel some shows and wait until Netflix. I need to spend my time working on creative projects and not watching the tv.

I'm grateful for these realizations! :)


Monday, May 29, 2017

Day 330


Day 330 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

 Monday, May 29th, 2017.

I'm grateful for a busy day after work. I got a little over 9,000 steps in.

That's all I'm allowed to say as this is a gratuity challenge! LOL


Sunday, May 28, 2017

Day 329


Day 329 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, May 28th, 2017.

I'm grateful for another day off. I'll be working plenty next month. I just wish my job was more consistent so I can work on projects.

I'll just have to pray for more discipline on myself. No rest for the wicked.


Saturday, May 27, 2017

Day 328


Day 328 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, May 27th, 2017.

Every day I ask for strength, and patience to the Universe. Every day it's a struggle. And yet, every day, I try to find something to be grateful about.

Well, I'm grateful for the shows I need to catch up on from my DVR. It's my only escape. And I love my little dogs. They make me smile.


Day 327


327 days of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Friday, May 26th, 2017.

I'm grateful today is literally my Friday! I am so exhausted, I don't even know how I'm still up right now! LOL

Spock had a busy day. I had to take him with me because his bedding needed washing and I didn't want to put him in his crate without one.

He was a very sweet little boy. I'm so grateful for him. And my Lassie girl!


Thursday, May 25, 2017

Day 326


Day 326 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Thursday, May 25th, 2017

I'm grateful this anxiety of mine disappeared. My head was spinning bad!

I'm grateful I got most accomplished today despite working and driving mostly.


Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Day 325


Day 325 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Wednesday, May 23rd, 2017.

I lost track of the time.

I'm grateful for my little puppy. He keeps me busy. He was running around so much, he stopped to take a nap--in my dustpan! LOL That tells you how tiny he is! :)

I guess laundry can wait until tomorrow. I got sidetracked. No OUAT today. Eh, I do that sometimes.

Here's a picture of tonight's sky. Beautiful, right?


Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Day 324


Day 324 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Tuesday, May 23rd, 2017

I am grateful I got a load of laundry done!

I'm grateful for my pups!

I'm grateful for my husband.

I'm grateful for my son.

I'm grateful for my grandma.

I'm grateful for good friends!

I'm grateful tomorrow is another day!


Monday, May 22, 2017

Day 323


Day 323 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Monday, May 22nd, 2017.

I'm grateful things are slowly starting to get back in motion!

I'm grateful everything turned out alright. I worry myself sometimes. I just combined a bunch of teas (chamomile, lavender, dandelion root, ginger, and kava root) just to calm myself down a bit. I ran out of green tea. LOL I have no idea why I just over shared, but you're welcome! LOL



Sunday, May 21, 2017

Day 322


Day 322 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Sunday, May 21st, 2017.

Ah, home! I am grateful to be home! I am grateful I can sleep in tomorrow! Mentally, I am so worn out!

I guess it's like those things to lie it true. I get good sleep! LOL I am such a liar! hahahahahaha


Saturday, May 20, 2017

Day 321


Day 321 of the 365 Day Gratitude Challenge.

Saturday, May 20th, 2017

I'm grateful to have one more work day and then I'm off on Monday!

I'm grateful I turned a blog in despite the crazy circumstances I've been under between the new pup, creating every day gratitude challenges, and also trying to keep up with the mental health challenge. I still have week three in the works! I can't believe this month is almost over.

I can't believe a lot of things lately. I think the month of May has been a perpetual black and full moon...or something like that. May June ever be in our favor!

I'm grateful for good friends, my husband and son, and my dogs and bird! :)



12.10: American Pie

Looks like a place of solitude! Perfect for this post!

Quote a line from your favorite poet/poetess
Picture of bridge in Punta Gorda, Fl. Taken by yours truly

Mention your middle name
My middle name is Jillian

I never seem to have any time to write these days. I've taken on a new puppy, and he pretty much takes up all of my time when I'm home.

I'm doing things a little differently.

What in the Jillian am I doing? I've really got nothing.  I just really liked this week's topic. I'm wasting my slice of American Pie solely on this paragraph.

How ironic was it I picked this Langston Hughes quote just days before the suicide of one of my favorite artists, Chris Cornell?  I am so devastated.

 For those who don't know, the title of this Langston Hughes poem above is called Suicide Note.

"The calm,
Cool face of the river
Asked me for a kiss."

--Langston Hughes

I really have no guesses.  Nor did I have time to enter my guesses....Sorry!!!!