A little rant here and there and then I guess I am done.
I was going to write some poetry so be aware if this post suddenly disappears with something actually poetic rather than my ranting on and on....
I have failed...
As a parent...
As a wife...
As a daughter....
As a sister....
As a human being....
What happened to my life?
That's beyond me.
I'm so far lost...I....am....gone!
I don't recall asking for this life.
I don't recall asking for a dying husband.
He's only 46 and I 35.
I don't recall asking for a child that doesn't listen
A child that will NOT get his education
And risk me going to jail.
I don't recall asking for a child to be so completely different from me.
I don't recall asking for a child the replica of my mother
I don't recall wanting to stay grounded
And never leave
I don't recall asking for the daily tears.
I definitely don't recall having to suffer for wanting to go to school
To get an education
To have a better job that I DON'T have
I don't recall asking for shitty friends
And worse shitty family
What's up with that???
I just don't recall asking for all this bad
What I do recall...
Is asking for good things
Like a good job
And coming into money
And being good at what I do best
And being thin...Definitely the thin part.
So why am I writing this?
Because writing is my only outlet...
Even if no one else listen (Which they don't, BTW)
I know my paper will never fail......
It has no choice but to listen
And feel my pain
When I pour my ink out
Letting the paper stain....
That rhymed though I didn't intend for that.
I'm done now...
Written by ©Diana Jillian 5/21/13
Poem, Prose, No Rhyme,