Keeping Up

You never realize how much time you have on your hands until you have to stop doing what you're doing and take care of a loved one.

“In eternity there is no time, only an instant long enough for a joke.” ~~ Hermann Hesse, Steppenwolf

I find this quote to fit perfectly with what I have to say...

This week, well I should say last week, my other half was taken to the hospital. I thought he was having a stroke but it turned out he had low blood sugar. Then it turned out his kidneys are failing and now he needs treatments of dialysis either for the rest of his life or until he gets a kidney transplant. He can go years with dialysis and never need a new kidney if he chooses.

I've gotten off the subject as usual but this is what happens when you have to re-prioritize your life. Everything you thought you knew has ceased to exist when something happens. You have to care for someone but at the same time, you can't go anywhere.

Being in the hospital with my other half and taking care of him is a full time job. My only free time is in the morning where I drive nearly an hour out of my way to go back home and shower and feed the bird and get the mail and pay the bills.

Now, just because I have more time on my hands doesn't mean I'm going to sit around and count how many licks it takes to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll pop like the ever old commercial I posted of the boy with the owl who took a bite after 3 licks.

It means I am going to learn how to shut out the outside world and learn how to enjoy the power of what I was meant to do. What is in my blood whether it's good or not...That's writing.

So my spare time will be spent finally sitting down and editing and turning in a blog (weekly I hope). This is through Blogophilia and it's my first time so please go easy on me as I am still quite the novice at this. The only thing I need to crack the code is on learning how to manage my time better.

Until next time...

Image source from Google search.  I made the collage with paint.

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Equal Rights? Doesn't Apply To Me

Source:  http://mariahcarolina.blogspot.com/2011/04/how-womens-rights-have-change-through.html

If you think that trying to get an oil change with just 15 minutes before the mom and pop place closes before I decided to write this has influenced my decision, you may be wrong.  Or you could be right.

I was thinking of the many times I have gone in to get my oil changed and I was told I need this and that to be replaced.  All I could think was if I were a man, would this be happening? Probably not.  They would probably say oh well you need this and that, but there's no real hurry to getting it.

Not in my case.

I could almost guarantee you though, if I were a man, they would have stayed the extra minutes past 1 0' Clock to have my oil changed.

All these thoughts were dormant but popped up into my head on my way home.

A perfect example would be in the job force.

They claim Equal Opportunity Employer (EOE), but I can beg to differ.

While at this so called "EOE," you have to swear that you are NOT going to discuss pay.  If you do, you are FIRED.  Seriously???

Well, it just so happened that at my SEVEN years of employment with certain company, I was with friends, celebrating my birthday.

Out of the pocket falls a pay stub.  You know what I learned????  That this kid...Yes KID.  Younger than me by NINE years.  And only worked at this place on and off and on an off for the past FOUR years at the time, was making nearly TWO dollars more per hour than me.

Why was he making more money than me???  When I been at that job longer.  I have a kid to take care of and payments to make.  This kid had nothing to pay for but he kept coming back and got re-hired several times with more money each time.

He was not loyal to the job like I was.

Yet he made more money.

He ALWAYS called out sick.

Then it dawned on me...

I thought it was an EOE thing, but when I turned around I noticed other employees who worked less than me, were getting paid MORE than me.

It was more of the beat the dog who's loyal to you kind of thing...

Source:  http://www.imagekind.com/Blind-Loyalty-art?IMID=ed583689-243d-4c3a-90e1-96cfb0de52ac


I was too loyal and in return, I got burned.

So while you thought the topic was about equal rights it really wasn't.

It was about loyalty.

Watch out on who you're loyal with.

It will bite you in the end.

Until next time...

DJ



































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I Must Remember

This quote reminds me of something a good friend keeps reminding me:

Thank you :)

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Soulless

As usual,

I find myself backed to the corner,

Trying to defend myself.

Like that will help.

Decisions have been made about me.

With or without my permission.

I will accept it as is.

You think I sold my soul

I haven't

There is no soul to sell

For it is shattered

Broken

Congratulations!  :)

You won

For I have no battle left in me...

Written by ©Diana Jillian 8/13/12








































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How?

HOW?

How do I?
get back to the basic?
Get back to the beginning?
How do I?
Get back to the top?
Away from the bottom?
Back to the way things were?

I guess you can't.
You just tear down
And rebuild
And hopefully
Hopefully
You can get back there

I want to rise
Above it all
Be seen
Heard
Loved

I guess
It must
Begin
With me

Written by ©Diana Jillian 8/5/12







































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