Once Upon A Time....I was once an annoying, and caring person.
All I wanted to do was help out those who needed help. I wanted to fix the broken, and mend their hearts.
I wanted to be a best friend, a sister to those who mattered.
I always kept in touch with others. I would send others text messages, emails, snail mail, phone calls, you name it. I would find a way to keep in touch.
Then on Sunday, August 26th, 2012, all that changed.
I thought my husband was having a stroke. I called the ambulance, only to find out his blood sugar crashed because of kidney failure.
I only had maybe two or three friends at that time that checked up on me to see how I was holding up, and how my other half was doing. The first week was hell, but then, slowly but surely, everything was starting to get better.
Okay, I was still an idiot even after that situation.
I kept on saying that things have to change. I kept on saying that I had to cut off ties to those that honestly didn't give a damn for me.
I still had that tiny shred of hope.
Then the unthinkable happened.
April 5th of this year, I had an appointment to have a skin tag removed off my eyelid. The doctors removed it and sent the removed tissue to a lab. A few days later, I was told I had Basil Cell Carcinoma.
My appointment for eye surgery was set for May 5th....A whole month later. I was so scared. You know because it was on my eyelid and all. I was thinking I wouldn't have an eyelid left or something LOL. Nobody assured me.
Even my grandma and my mother were looking for reassurance from me.
It all just made me realize....
I need to cut my ties.
I deleted people from my life. This includes family that couldn't bother to ask me how I'm doing. I got tired of always trying.
If you learn one thing while you're scared to death...that is you can't waste your time trying to please others.
My only regret is I wished I didn't waste all my time and energy on them the way I did. I should have put an end to all of this several years ago.
I can be quite foolish....
Well, live and learn, right????
Am I alone on this???
~~DJ
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