In The Beginning

I came from the womb into the world on August 27th, 19xx....No need to label years here.  I was born in Brooklyn, not Ohio.  And I was given the name Diana.  Um, scratch that.  I wasn't given a name because my mother was told she was expecting a boy.  So for a few days, I had no name.

In case you're wondering.  The names Diana and Jillian came from Ryan's Hope and General Hospital.  Well, that's what I think at least.

I should talk about the times of when I could remember and work my way up, but I think I'm going to do things a tad differently.  I will start with subjects.

I hope you join me on my crazy journey inside my mind.








































Memoir, Blog, 

OCD

OCD

Written by ©Diana Jillian 6/24/12

I can repeatedly lie
And tell myself it's the truth

That I'm better off
And my grass is greener

I have lied
Over and over and over

Time and time again
And still

It somehow manages to sneak up on me

It bites me hard
And hurts so much

And I deny

I deny
Deny
Deny

And I lie
I lie
Lie
Lie

Cause the lie feels better than the truth
The truth hurts too much

My smile's a facade
But I can't hide
To myself

I can't hide
Behind curtains

And so I cry
I cry
Cry
Cry
Cry

So hard I can't breathe

When will it end?
When can I bleed the last drop out

When can I let go
Of my last breath?

When can I finally
Put my stupid mind to rest?

Forget it all
Forget
Forget
Forget


6/24/12 DJS










































Poem, Prose, No Rhyme,