OCD

OCD

Written by ©Diana Jillian 6/24/12

I can repeatedly lie
And tell myself it's the truth

That I'm better off
And my grass is greener

I have lied
Over and over and over

Time and time again
And still

It somehow manages to sneak up on me

It bites me hard
And hurts so much

And I deny

I deny
Deny
Deny

And I lie
I lie
Lie
Lie

Cause the lie feels better than the truth
The truth hurts too much

My smile's a facade
But I can't hide
To myself

I can't hide
Behind curtains

And so I cry
I cry
Cry
Cry
Cry

So hard I can't breathe

When will it end?
When can I bleed the last drop out

When can I let go
Of my last breath?

When can I finally
Put my stupid mind to rest?

Forget it all
Forget
Forget
Forget


6/24/12 DJS










































Poem, Prose, No Rhyme, 

Anxiety

Hey Everyone!!!

I hope you like the drawing I made...Anxiety can be really something, huh?  That's what it looks like to me.  Anyway.  I've been editing and working on the last part of my book, but took some time to write a little something...Here it goes:

ANXIETY

Written by ©Diana Jillian 5/19/12

Oh how I wish you

Would stop running me ragged

You confuse and upset me

Twist and turn me

Make me jumpy

Lose my balance

I can't think

I can't breathe

Can barely sleep

When you're around

I wish you gone

Take your spells and leave

Take the negative with you as well

Let me be calm

Let me be in peace

That's all I ask

5/17/12 written by ©Diana Jillian

Poem, No Rhyme, Picture, 

In Sepia

Hey Everyone!
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I know it's been a while since I last wrote anything...I've been so busy editing...And taking care of the family. So much has been going on since I've last written. I've decided I'm not going to let someone who is angry at me chase me away from where I want to be. I just don't have to tolerate it. I can be civil, but I will never feel that trust again.
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Anyway, we are now in hurricane season, so I bet you can imagine the ups and downs of living in SW Florida this time of year. The past few days here was....hmmm, how do I explain it???

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I'll just let you know in a poem:
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I was in NY, July 2001 and took a picture of the ESB tower...I changed the color tone to coincide with the poem... .

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IN SEPIA

Written by ©Diana Jillian 5/16/12

Today I awake in sepia views
Undertones of brown yellow-orange hues

I love to play around with this kind of tone
But waking up to it makes me feel so alone

Sun, the sun, supposed to play a major role
Florida sun makes me happy not down in a hole

I'm glad when you descend and moon is here
I'm sad when you arrive and no where near

For today was sepia, a warm tricky tone
It is sunny and cloudy with rain time unknown

And so today I awake in a sepia view
A bleak dreary day dipped in unwanted hue

Written, Wednesday, 5/16/12

Poem, Picture,

Full Moon

 Taken 5/5/12

Published 5/6/12





Hey Everyone!!! Here are some pics from last night's full moon. I took them roughly around 8:30 EST and I took them with my camcorder. I was going to make a video, but decided some still shots will do. I hope you like them...I like the glow around the moon the best...

 

Blog, Picture, Random, 

Children

CHILDREN

Written by ©Diana Jillian circa 1998

Children of today learn of what
Parents teach for tomorrow.
The eyes of a child look to their
Parents for guidance, and wisdom.
Children do what you teach them to do.
They are so inspired by the things you say and do.
So watch what you say and do.
Children will always follow in the
Footsteps of the beholder....

Poem, No Rhyme, Prose,