Fantasy

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 22.12  Topic: “When the Movie Credits Roll”
Hard Bonus (2 points): Use an onomatopoeia
Pow! Bam!
Easy Bonus (1 point): Use a book title by Carl Safina
Beyond Words

Dream in fantasy
Nothing else is meant to be
I want to be free
Beyond words and destiny
When the movie credits roll

I will soon be free
Like pow and bam! I'll be free
From reality
I never truly ever
Want the fantasy to end

©Diana Jillian, Monday, 8.5.19

Rewind (21.12)

Ecrits Blogophilia week 21.12 Topic: Rewind
2 pts. Include a Peter Gabriel Lyric
"I get so lost sometimes"
1pt.  Incorporate the word "theory"

I need to rewind
'Cause I get so lost sometimes 
I have a theory
I was born in the wrong time
Born in the wrong universe



DJ

I keep writing Tanka poems. They're easy! Sometimes I write two stanzas. But one is all I can muster up. I messed up last week. I didn't get my writer's choice in! I really wanted to. I just got caught up in another world or so to speak.

I guess I'll put in my guesses:

Topic: Jessica
Picture: Tyler

Picture Phrase Guesses:
01. Reflection
02. Glass House
03. Looking Glass
04. Lost in Wonderland
05. Alice
06. Don't look back
07. Don't turn around
08. A glimmer of hope
09. Eyes of the Beholder
10. Eye see what you did there!

Priorities

I always try to get my brain right before posting. But I know if I do, I’ll never post in a timely fashion.

I do want to write a story, but what’s the point when no one pays attention to the words I write?

So, it’s up to me to make changes! I have to put “making changes” on my top priority list!

I’ve put everyone else and everything else on my priority list. It didn’t matter if I was going through a battle of depression. It didn’t matter if my husband was sick. It didn’t matter if I had to take my son to the hospital. If you needed me, I was there!

I made the efforts to keep in touch with people. Write them. Send them emails. Text them, etc. I would have 100 priorities to do, and I would rearrange them all just to fit you in. Even when I was going to school and working and homeschooling my son, I still put you there on my priority list.

I put off writing my stories, or whatever it was I deemed important, for you...for anyone!

I went to my cousin’s graduation after my eye surgery. I picked a friend up from work because their ride broke down. I’ve taken them to work when I should have been on my way to the movies. I’ve watched kids for friends and for my husband’s niece and nephew when I didn’t want to watch anymore kids because it was so painful to watch kids that weren’t my own, and now I have to face facts I’ll never have any more kids. I have to mourn that. And while in mourning, or working on my own projects during down time and my days off, I will drop everything if you need me!

That’s the kind of person I am!

I never expected anything in return, but then it dawned on me that when I needed someone--either a shoulder to cry on, or something--no one bothered to add me to their priority list. I get told they have their own emotional trauma going on, and they have to be in a good place before they can even speak to me!

Um, asphinctersayswhat? I openly admit my bi-polar/depression disorder. I want people to know what’s going on in my head so they won’t feel they’re alone in this world like so many have made me feel my whole life!

I openly discuss my anxiety disorder. I openly discuss my eye surgery and my psoriasis, and my deal with weight gain, etc...

I still manage to put all that aside for others. It doesn’t matter if I feel crippled mentally. It doesn’t matter if you’re the most negative person on the face of the earth, and I just need to be around all things light and positive. It doesn’t matter if I just need to see funny memes or funny shows on TV. I would have dropped all that for you!

But now, I’m putting myself on the top of the priority list. And it’s about time I did!

I can’t keep being a doormat!

DJ

Blogging

Friday, 7.6.18

I was half thinking I should join the blogging group again. Half thinking it!

I think the root of my non-writing is due to working, but mostly because I feel an obligation to write a blog once a week. I said I would write one weekly, I just never said where I would write it.

I need to take more Ritalin and just FOCUS!!!

I need to focus more.

I don't want to be mindlessly thumbing my way down Facebook's never ending page. I don't want to see what I've missed, or who tagged me in what, or even get notified that someone has posted. I just don't.

I opened the app back up again yesterday...Well, Wednesday. I was at work, and I was very bored. Wednesday was the 4th of July.

I don't even know anymore. I am posting a picture, because I was told that is how you get more attention! Not that I want any. Not anymore. I like that this is private and no one sees this but me.

And then I finally get time off. When I do get time off, I'm either cleaning or sleeping due to being sick or getting my monthly visitor.

It always seems like there's never any balance.

Then there's discouragement!

Every time I do clean, the house picks back up a shit storm, and it rains trash again. I can't win!

I'll have to stop making excuses and just do what needs to be done...no matter what!



DJ

Writing

Sunday, 7.1.18

I don't get it! You would think since I've deactivated myself from the social media world (Oh, c'mon! We all know Blogger does NOT count as social media), I would have started writing.

I remember when I decided to start writing a novel 12 years ago. It took me a long time to get my thoughts together and such. All I ever had before then were just plain old story plots! I guess I'll have to start somewhere!!! Anywhere!

I was reading how to prepare for a short story. I've written lots of short stories. Now I want to write novels. I want to write at least nearly 300 pages! I'm not even sure how many words that is. TBH, books come in different sizes, and most are either audio or ebooks.

Where was I? I forgot. I was writing this and then my little dog wanted my attention. This happens a lot since I got him as a puppy! I was ready for new adventures now that I had come to terms accepting that I was never going to have another child in this lifetime.

Let me give you some advice...to whoever is going to read this..if they do! If you want a kid and your spouse does not, you need to leave! Your spouse/partner has already decided they don't want a kid...AND THEY MEAN IT! That means you are never going to change their mind. They might change yours, but you will never change theirs.

Don't stay in a relationship because you feel obligated or you feel their words are true. They're the true breadwinners and you'll never make it out on your own. Grow a strong mind. Create your own cheering section. And get the courage to walk away! Find someone to fall in love with that wants the same things you want.

Of course, be careful if they want the EXACT same things you want (other than kids, of course). They could be psychopaths or sociopaths. Let your conscience be your guide. If you don't make good decisions, make a list of pros and cons. I would say go to your friends, but they could either be in awe of you, or jealous of you. Their decisions should not count.

Now, back to my original babbling.

Writing!

Yes! I must write. I just need to clear my DVR, and then I'll get to writing. Wait! I already said that...didn't I?

So puppies and young dogs are a handful and they keep you busy.

I will try writing a novel again. I just need to be more focused with my main characters and not have them doing 20 million things in one book. Though the Hobbit did the same thing. I'm sure the writer got berated for that as well. Still, he published.

The point I'm getting at is I've listened to everyone. I'm listening to everyone that has not written a story like I have. I once wrote a story in 100 words on a blog topic where you had to name a Shakespeare character. Of course I knew Persephone was the queen of the underworld. But it was 100 words. I had room for one name...I chose Ophelia. I got berated for it. She was the queen of the underwater world....get it? No?

That was about 2 years ago, and I'm still dwelling on it. 10 years ago I came up with an idea to create zombies that talk. Someone told me zombies don't talk. Fast forward two years later and we have Warm Bodies. Fast forward a few more, and you have iZombie and Z Nation.

My point is DON'T LISTEN TO OTHERS. Let them criticize, and then do it anyway!!! They were jealous they didn't think of it first, that's all!

I better go now. I have to go get bamboo seeds.


DJ

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