In Shadows

Another writing prompt

I wanted to set my mind free, like a well-made, thoughtful puzzle
The pieces all seem to be there, but one is always somehow missing
This is where my recurring nightmare never ever seems to go away
When they shut the door on your face, and promises lead to dissing

In my shadows, I am comfortable, and I find the peacefulness in me
I have learned to forgive, but still, I only wanted to get some closure
Instead you slammed the door in my face, and then called me pathetic
Then you threw me into the sun, unexplained, burned from exposure

You couldn't be bothered with answering a simple teeny tiny question
You turned it around to make it all about you. I guess the joke's on me
And like a fool, I kept on forgiving you, like a beaten dog to its owner
And after I protested against making friends, you just couldn't let me be

So you hooked me in, and I fell for the friendship thing despite the lies
And when I needed a friend, you couldn't be bothered to lend a hand
When I ask, "Why?"  You claim I'm mean and being very over-dramatic
Then you coldly laughed at me while burying me deep into the hot sand

Then I see you once again, and I really don't know why, but you wanna try
Welcome to my nightmare, I think you're gonna like it, and feel you belong
I want to make you feel what I felt, but a leopard never changes its spots
And so your words confuse me when I haven't heard from you in so long

And you ask to be friends, but why?  All I want to know is why?
I've made the first move.  I can't be around for those who don't care
I can't even have words with you without you making it about you
I only wanted closure. Cutting ties is good enough. It only seems fair.

Written by ©Diana Jillian 3/15/15

DJ